http://imperceptions.org/2015/03/14/the-agony-of-misophonia/
Ever try to explain to someone, whether a total stranger or a longtime friend, about how sounds or movements make you crazy, without sounding like you’re … well … crazy? So we keep quiet and say nothing and fight down the panic or get up and walk away. People act like you’re making it up, you’re trying to get attention, you’re a hypochondriac, you’re acting like a spoiled brat. In reality all you want is for the sounds or motions to STOP because they’re making your skin crawl, they’re invoking a massive uncontrollable fight-or-flight response, they’re causing you to respond in inappropriate ways just to keep sane.
Then, once you do say something, people over react. They make a point of making sure you know they’re aware of EVERY SINGLE SOUND they make, whether it’s a trigger sound or not. YES, WE GET IT. Being around me is a pain in the ass, let me just apologize for this uncontrollable brain issue I have some more.
I’ll let you know if a sound is a trigger. Please stop assuming every sound ever made is going to make me turn into a screaming psychotic, because it isn’t. But if you know that making a movement or a sound is going to trigger me, and you make a point of doing it anyway, I’m going to punch you in the fucking throat. You know, like a screaming psychotic.
It is uncontrollable, it is extreme, and it is hopeless. We do not get annoyed – we get absolutely panicked. We sit there holding our breath, our minds being enveloped by hateful thoughts – and in our desperation we may flee, or we may cry. Our minds are telling us to fight back – to get out. Some of us may even want to hurt ourselves or others.
